Friday, August 13, 2010

Fragile-Reprise

*August 13, 2010-After writing this post, the other day, I leafed through the mail which was sitting on the counter in our kitchen.  Bills, junk-mail, an ad for a carpet cleaner, a small white package addressed to me in human handwriting.  I opened up the package and found the small, hand-needlepointed treasure which is pictured below.  It was made by a dear friend from Minnesota whom I have known for several years.  Like me, she suffers from CFS/Fibromyalgia/mystery illness and yet, she always cares SO much.  When I saw that it was a Hummingbird, I looked up toward the skies and smiled.  I smiled because sometimes, the messages that we need the most can show up in the form of a hand-needlepointed Hummingbird from a faraway friend.  And along with those messages, can come the whispers of angels telling us that we are not quite alone as we might feel.  Thank you, sweet Kar.  


And thank you to all of my wonderful blogging friends who always leave me notes that remind me of the very same thing:)

Wednesday, August 11, 2010-While in flight, the Hummingbird's heart rate can reach up to 1260 beats per minute.  Yet there are times, when the Hummingbird must slow itself down, that it has the capacity to lower its own heartbeat from 50-180 beats per minute.  It's tiny body understands the necessity to decelerate.  To rest.  To renew.  To restore.

I am experiencing a shift in my souls own need to bring it down a level.  I can't quite put my finger on it, but there is a nagging at the center of my being which is causing me to try to slow it down.  To back away.  To give myself some space.  My heart has worked so incredibly hard over the past several years to remain intact.  To decelerate from the excess, nonsensical stress that has been thrust upon it.  And even at rest, my heart often feels overworked.  Over-taxed.  Fragile.

So like the Hummingbird, who instinctively adheres to its bodies natural need for rejuvenation,  I must somehow find mine again.

A beautiful hand-stitched gift from a kind-hearted friend.

9 comments:

Mumsy said...

Wishing you the very best sweet Debra, it is good that you recognize the need to rest and slow things down a bit, I am glad you are listening to your body and doing what you need to do. You are always in my prayers sweet lady.

Will be looking to hear very soon that you are doing tons better and the stress has gone away.

Hugs

jojo said...

I was here earlier and left without leaving a comment. I have been thinking about this post ever since.
I have felt a restlessness in my heart for so long that I began to think it was normal. Thanks for reminding me that it is not.
We all need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and take stock of our place in this world.
I hope you find what it is that you are searching for, or missing. Give yourself plenty of time, be kind and generous to you...you are important to me sweet friend.

Sharon said...

Incredible photo, and the lesson of the hummingbird is an important one. May your feel peaceful and at ease ~

I so appreciated your comment over at my place. When I think about it, you're right. It was a labor of the heart.

Sabi Sunshine said...

Dear Deb:)

I am sorry to reach you late but I was busy.

Love the photographs .. it's been a while i havent seen any post about you and your hubby. Please do write about it.

THank you for your advise i know it's hard right now but it shall pass.. I always admire your thoughts and advice. I will need it in future too I am still learning lot of things about realtionship.

Love to have you in my world as a true friend.

Have a wonderful week!
Love
Sunshine

Renee said...

This is the third post today that I have read on resting. Two spoke of restoration. When I get something three or more times I take it as a sign from God. I pray you find your resting to be rstorative and for strength to return to you in double portions.

Mickey (Michel) Johnson said...

...hoping that you can catch a bit of peace so you can breathe deeply...xoxo

Ness said...

As always, your words are spot on to me. I just needed your affirmation(and gentle nudging) to take a step back. So much stress in my life. The Depression Monster is alive and well and I am so miserable. Whoever said money can't buy happiness hasn't been without medication for 2 weeks. However if God brings us to it, God will bring us through it. After today I have 2 days off and I'm going on a quest for peace in my soul. Tried to call you a few times recently but you are never home. :-) Love you sistah-friend.

Melissa @ The Inspired Room said...

Very timely for me. I go a million miles a minute so I relate! I'm slowing down in any way I can to free up the pressure and take away burdens I do not need to carry. Cleaning out closets, my inbox ... all little things but I'm starting to feel like my heart can rest just a wee bit easier :-)

Much love and peace to you my friend!!
xo & Blessings! Melissa

Laura said...

sending loving, healing energy to soothe your heart and your whole being my friend. Slow down, rest, take gentle care of yourself dear one.

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