chakra or something that is blocked within my soul. I do know that the physical feeling occurs right in the center of my heart and extends down into the upper left side of my stomach. It is an anxious sensation and once it hits, I have a difficult time moving past it. Most of the time, I just go on to something else because it feels futile when I do not understand its origination to begin with. I always feel much lighter after writing. It is kind of like putting the words into a helium balloon and just setting them free into the universe. It is a very positive experience for me and yet, this stagnating fear... Definitely something worth exploring but I don't even know how or where to begin. Anybody else dealing with this kind of thing? I would love to know what you might wrestle with and how you manage to move past the fear. Please feel free to share in the comments or email me if you have had any success in this area. It really helps to hear from others who have been through, or might be going through the same thing.
In the photo above, my dad is standing in for Angel Daughter Number Four which is why he is squatting down. It is his sense of humor which I cannot apologize for because I definitely inherited it. I get him but I can always spot the poor individuals who just don't. They usually aren't sure if he is kidding or being serious. Then they look over at me. The blank stares tend to give it away. Sometimes I try to explain but it is usually futile because, well, he is my dad, and it is sort of hard to explain...
But mainly there was love and joy and lots of I'll see you soons which are all a part of the journey. All part of taking flight. All a part of our family history.
Ah, the tender, lingering sweetness of it all.