Friday, January 25, 2008

Out of the Darkness

There are murky borders which divide the darkness and the light within our daily lives. Each day, many of us make a conscious decision as to which part of the spectrum we would like to dwell in for that day. The sky in this photo reminds me that although there is always black and white, there is also grey. For the most part, we tend to live within the grey portion of our lives, but now and again, we are pulled willingly, or unwillingly into the dark or the light.

Through this blog, I have often been pulled into the light. My heart has been launched by a thousand kind words. My spirit has taken flight on the wings of a single kind gesture timed just at the perfect moment. I am finding that, more and more, I look towards you to save me from falling head first into the darkness. Just knowing that you are there gives me the strength to combat the individuals in my life, who knowingly or unknowingly, try to drag my generally happy soul into the dark spaces in which they mostly reside. Sadly, these individuals are extended family members who tend to be cold, inconsiderate and mean-spirited. They test my optimistic outlook by jarring me out of my happy, little world. If being chronically ill has taught me nothing else, it has taught me not to allow others to bring me into the dark on days in which my pain has not achieved that by itself. I am learning that I can choose light over dark, happy over sad and good over not so good. I am learning that an ounce of genuine kindness from a stranger, is worth a ton of forced niceness from someone who is supposed to love you. I am learning...

May the light that is in your life always find a way to overpower the darkness. May there always be someone who can help you to soar, midair, back into the light, when you feel as if you are just about to plunge, head on, into the darkness.

Amen.

14 comments:

Irene Latham said...

Hi Debbie -- I am learning too. One of my favorite quotes is a very empowering one: Life is not about finding yourself, it is about creating yourself. Of course darkness is a part of life -- if it wasn't we wouldn't recognize the light. But it is up to us to find that balance and ultimately to choose where we reside. You are a brilliant star for many people, including me. Thanks for this post! Don't let those negative folks get you down -- beat 'em with your brightness. :) You have strengths they will probably never know. xxoo

Catherine Holman said...

Thanks again for the sweet comment. You're a very gentle, often poetic soul and this comes through in your writing. What a thoughtful man your husband must be to commission a portrait of an angel (you)! It's great to find an intact loving marriage! My husband of 35 years is my best supporter too!

Alison said...

Hi Debbie..again, a wonderful post. Your words are poetic and heartfelt. I see you as being in the light. I see you as a positive influence in my life. You always have kind word to say and you encourage me in my struggles.
You are a very special person!
Thank you.

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

Deb

I am so glad you felt well enough to post - this is a wonderful entry and as always, made me sit back and smile. I am so glad you find comfort in this blog world - I hope you know how much you have come to mean to so many....especially me.

Hallie

tj said...

...Hello Debbie, I'm so glad to see you post - I worry when I don't hear from you for awhile. Please don't let this person drag you down, please know that you are better than this and that you can and will rise above it or them...

...I hope you are feeling okay - blessings to you!

...Hugs... ;o)

Debra said...

Irene, Catherine, Alison, and Hallie,

You are all beacons that guide me gently into the light. I am blessed because I have connected with each one of you. I am deeply grateful for all of your thoughtful, well-worded comments.

Thank you.

Hugs,
Debbie

Debra said...

TJ,

Every time I see that you have left a comment for me, I smile. You, my dear heart, are a ray of sunshine.

Thank you, lovely lady.

Hugs,
Debbie

Anonymous said...

My dear, you obviously are a ray of light to so many, don't let the turkeys get you down! How's that for a poetic comment? Ok, well, not so poetic or lovely to read, but true. You deserve to be surrounded by beauty always.
xoxoxxoxo

Wonderful World of Weiners said...

Don't forget to stop on over today - I MIGHT have talked about you!

Hallie

Laura ~Peach~ said...

awesome post thank you
Laura

Amber said...

You are one of my sources of light. When the day has been long, and my spirit starts to feel toxic, I know I can count on you to remind that there is something bigger at work within me. Thank you for you encouragement. You are no stranger to me...you are my friend and I hope that I can offer you the same support you have given me.

aleahdw said...

i love you so much. you are the light and inspiration in my life. i miss you!

Debra said...

Scarlett,

You ARE my friend.

daviida,

I love YOU more!

Hugs,
Deb

Ness said...

My soul sister of the invisible illness world...there are not enough spoons in your world to have to tolerate those who have nothing better to do than try and rain on your rainbow. Bless you as you deny passage to those who try to hurt you. I have to believe there is a special place in hell for those who are so blatantly cruel.

You're one of the rainbows in my life and I'm so glad. Hope you're having a good day.

Ness

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